How many times have you been sitting and just casually thinking about something and then this random thought invades your head...and you realize that the random thought is REALITY and it just walked in and smacked you in the face!!!
Ok...you know what I'm talking about! I'm sitting in my shop right now and I'm reeling from a blow to my psyche...like, a right cross/uppercut combination blow! In 5 days, my daughter, my baby is getting married!!! NO...that can't be right. She's 11 years old and we're late for soccer practice....she's got a dance recital this weekend...or was it a show choir competition??? What's happening here??? When did reality & real life invade my happy space and steal away my baby's childhood???
This feeling of incredulousness (my new word) is growing and compounding by the minute. My son just left to go back home to Georgia this morning. He was here for a friend's bachelor weekend and brought his new girlfriend to meet us. He is dating this lovely and delightful young woman...and I don't think I've EVER seen a light in his eyes like I do when they are together. This look is giving me the vibes that we may be doing this wedding thing again sooner than I EVER anticipated! NOT FAIR!!!
I'm soooooooooo sentimental! I save every memento of every event, no matter how minor...and I lose my emotional stability with something as simple as looking at an old photo. I'm getting teary just writing this down right now. OH MAN...how will I ever get my baby down the aisle and married if I can't control myself any better than this??? What do I do if they both get married just a few months apart???
If you are reading this diatribe right now, you're saying to yourself, what the heck is his malfunction?!
I DON'T KNOW! But to quote Robin Williams (Mrs. Doubtfire)...
"Ever since my children were born, the moment I looked at them, I was crazy about them.
Once I held them, I was hooked. I’m addicted to my children, sir."
Call me crazy...but if this is crazy...I don't want to be sane! I love my kids and I am not going to ever change that for anyone!!! So, break out the tranquilizers and muscle relaxers for me...I'm gonna need 'em! They are a gift and a blessing from God, so I figure, he'll just help me figure it all out! In the mean time, please be patient with me...I'm really not ready for this!!!