Well...It's been 10 months since the last time I created a blog post. Since then, I've been through so much, it's difficult to know where to begin. I actually removed the BLOG page from the site for the last several months. I'm not really sure why, but it just didn't seem to me that it needed it to be there. No particular reason, just a gut feeling...but I've changed my mind...So, I now want to share what is on my heart and what's been going on in my life.
This post is not going to be humorous or glib. In fact, you may actually accuse me of being morbid and depressing. I am truly sorry if you take it that way, but in this particular post, I'm going to deal with some VERY serious feelings that I have in my heart and head right now...things that relate to the events in my life over the last 10 months.
To give this a little perspective, our family reached a major milestone this week. A year ago this week, we lost my Father-in-Law. In 4 more weeks, it will be a year since the death of my Mom. The more I have thought and reflected on this, the more I am realizing that I have much in my heart that I want to share. Now, it's doubtful that many people will ever read this or, if they do, that it will have any meaningful impact on their lives, but I find this sharing of my heart very therapeutic...so, I'm gonna keep going!!!
My last post (8/15/18) was about a week before I had knee replacement surgery, and about a month after the passing of my Mom. In spite of my belief and assurance that I was prepared to have a knee replacement, I WAS NOT!!! I am here to tell you...for those who don't understand what this entails, this was one of the most emotionally, physically, and spiritually challenging events of my life. I plan on writing more in-depth on this later, but, for the record, I won't be doing the other knee ANY TIME in the near future!
I've also had to begin to address the diagnosis of liver disease that I so unexpectedly had revealed to me just before my Mom's passing. To be told that I have the same disease that was about to take her life, and with absolutely NO warning that I was even sick, was shocking! But, in the months since, I have actually been blessed to be accepted into a clinical trial for an experimental drug treatment that may reverse the effects of NASH (non-alcoholic steatohepatitis) and cirrhosis. Of course...It may not work...or it may fail to help me...or I may find that I can't take the medications...
But, then again...it MAY save my life! At least someone is trying to do something to reverse the effects of this horrible disease. I watched the way it slowly took my Mom's life and I am determined to do whatever I can to maintain my own health for as long as possible. In the end, it may not save me, but the research they are conducting may lead to a cure or at worst, a treatment for a condition that currently has NONE!
Don't get me wrong...things aren't all doom and gloom in my life! Far from it. God had blessed me and my family so much in the past 10 months, in spite of the losses and physical challenges, that I hardly know where to begin.
I was so blessed to join a wonderful small group at Church called GriefShare. This 13 week course/study helped me to address the sadness and hurt of the loss of my Mom and Father-in-Law, but it's entire structure is to deal with grief from a spiritual base...and I was amazed to find out just how God can take the sadness and grief and turn it to joy! And I know that my Mom would be the first to tell me to NOT dwell in the grief and sadness, but get on with living!
My wife and I have also been extremely blessed to have a joined a sermon based small group from our Church that has led to the growth of some very close friendships. For the first time in MANY years, I feel that I am attending a Church with people who truly care about us as people, who share in our triumphs and our tragedies, and who treasure us as much as we do them. I know that God led us to our Church and I eagerly await what is yet to come for us there!
There have also be major events and blessings in the lives of our children that have taken place. Our daughter finished her Master's degree and she and her husband purchased their first home. I'm very proud of her hard work and dedication. She's always been very goal oriented and she has accomplished so many things that others said she would/could not! I hope I'm not speaking out of turn...but...I dare say, I hope it won't be long until we are blessed with the gift of grand-babies! (I SURE HOPE IT'S SOON!)
Our son has also made some major changes in his life in the last few months. He has become seriously involved with a wonderful young lady and we are anxiously awaiting the news that they are going to be getting married! (YES...I said that publicly) He also has accepted a major promotion from the company he works for and has moved to their corporate headquarters in South Carolina. This made me very happy AND sad at the same time. He has been so blessed to have been promoted 3 times in 3 years with his company, but each promotion takes him further away from home. That is hard for the old man to be happy about, but I know it's part of life and I am so proud and happy for him.
Well...It's 2:00 a.m. and I'm supposed to be getting up in 4 hours, so I guess I need to go to sleep. If you're reading this blog, I hope you can appreciate the ramblings of this old man. It helps me a lot to be able to put down my feelings...even if they don't always make sense or seem very entertaining.
My goal is to return to my "blogging" of old...speaking and commenting on my life and the humorous, uplifting, or important issues that are a part of it. If you are along for the ride, drop me a note and let me know you are out there. Otherwise, I'll just keep talking to myself (...and our pets!)
Till next time....
PEACE & LOVE
Husband, father, sinner saved by the Grace of God, old teacher, wood-worker, bad golfer, USM Golden Eagle (forever) and MSU Bulldog lover (It's a daughter thing)